Slept in this morning, and needed to rush out the door. Instead of doing that I pulled up photoshop and drew a little five minute sketch. Then I ran out the door. Was late for work again, oh well, at least I have my priorities straight.
Took a bit of an extended break in order to sort out some work and visit the family. Somehow managed to fill my sketchbook in two months! I’ve been so incredibly rusty, still am really, but I find myself a much happier person now that it has become part of the regular routine again.
Now, in the spirit of the new year, and with the intent of moving on to new projects, I’ve put my Senior Thesis film online. I started it way back in 2007, when it was some sort of grand, overly complicated idea, which translated pretty clearly to ‘pretentious shithead.’ The project went through a number of stages including shelving it with full intention of pretending it never existed. I have felt real hatred towards it; that frustration set up some strange mental roadblock, so I pulled it back out and gave it another go.
It took a long time to realize it was about little actions adding up, self sabotage, and all the things I tend to loose site of. That was when I decided to put this online on the first of the year (and somehow decide to share it on the fourth? busy/lazy/lame) So, here it is:
The film still needs a proper sound mix, but all and all I’m happy to share it. I don’t hate it anymore, if only because I appreciate the things I learned from it, especially as a first proper animated film. It is not a great film by any means, it has dramatic flaws and more than a few cut corners in production, but it is a real representation of my developing. More importantly it made me think about what it really is that I want to explore, and made me a better artist for it.
I used to be afraid of sharing this. Now that this is online I feel better; I know how I feel about it, wanted from it and got from it, so I’m just not going to worry about it. Now it just is, and self indulgent ranting aside, I’m super excited for what is coming up next.
Vacation time is over, daily practice starting back up tomorrow!